work baby shower

last friday, 10/1/10 at 26 weeks, my work threw me a baby shower.  it was really sweet, and i was grateful for everything that we received for the twins.  i love how you get the cutest things wrapped in the cutest bags!  seriously at baby showers, people go all out with the most adorable bags!  i love it!!!

we had cake, unwrapped presents, and i was happy to see everyone who made it.  even those who couldn't make it ended up sending something ahead of time.  that was nice thinking as i'm sure they had other plans.  i was abundantly grateful for those who planned/set it all up.  when they helped my husband load the car, he was also so surprised and thankful for what we were given.

thank you for everything, everyone!!!  have some homework to do (thank-you cards) now! :)

i think that it was an emotional experience for me... for the fact that... soon enough, i'll have two little bundles of joy clothing with these gifted clothes!  it's a lot of pressure, knowing that soon their time will come and so will ours to be ultimately responsible for them.  for that, it's overwhelming to see a "glimpse" into the future.  not that it's bad... just makes everything more real.

i know that i'm an outgoing person, but it's embarrassing to be the center of attention, so, at first, it was hard to have everyone stare at me while i unwrapped what they got for the girls.  awkward.  i probably went through some gifts too fast... just to move through it so that my face wouldn't redden even more.  i'm sorry if you're reading this and i did that to you.  i had no anticipation to do that.  it was just an emotional time for me... that people would care so much about our babies who are still in my womb.

again, thank you for everything and for those who came!!! :)

(note: it's just that i know i teach kids, and they do that everyday, but it's still not something i've grown accustomed to/liked.  even when i ask the kids to stop everything and look at me... it's embarrassing to see all eyes on me.  i dislike being looked/stared at, wondering what they're thinking.  it's something that i've never gotten used to.  perhaps, it has to do with when i was younger, how people would make fun of my innocent/gullible/naive mindset when i just wanted to believe in the best of people.  maybe that's what i associate looking/staring with... since it happened so much when i was younger.  definitely, it's something to work on... it's one of those uncomfortable things to work on that you know will only strengthen you as a person.)